Friday, March 20, 2009

I NEED ...

I'm saying it.
I need ...
I need ________________.
For someone I trust to ask me if I'm ok.
For someone I trust to LISTEN to the answer.
A hug.
To be validated.
For someone (everyone) to recognize I'm not a pillar of strength, but a woman with fragility and vulnerability and an end, also, to MY rope and stamina.
Another hug.
To have the Here-Ya-Go Stress/Problem faucet redirected or just plain shut off for, oh, I dunno, 24 hours?
Romance that I don't initiate.
The dishes to be done when I get home, for a change.
A night out where I'm NOT the designated driver.
To dance to some good R&B with 3 or 4 beers in my system, really busta move, get into myself and my own need to break out & off this relentless tension.

To cry and cry and cry and cry and cry ...

12 comments:

Carla said...

Exactly.

Holly said...
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Holly said...

I'm here. Are you okay? How are you? Really. How are you, really? What's on your mind? What would you like to say...for as long as you need to say it...I'm here. I'm listening. No, don't edit, say it like you need to say it. Feel it like you need to feel it. And, I'll still be here. Here to extend a shoulder to lean on and a hug to prop you up. Promise! Dance with me, Gurl!But, the dishes might still be on you!

Alison said...

Yes, tell me about it. Especially the Designated Driver one! Hey, I'm here too. Gals who have partied together can be trusted to do... whatever. And we can listen to each other.

Cam@Journey Wildly said...

I brought a six-pack and a burnt cd with Aretha asking for some Respect, Ray asking What'd I Say? and telling us to do the Mess Around, and plenty more artists to keep them company.

I brought my Black Eyed Peas, too. In case ya feelin like REALLY shakin' your booty...

Sing it out. Whatever it is. I felt lighter after my messy post the other day, but I removed it because it's too much for one paragraph to handle...

Pop a top with me, girl. Let's boogie.

Mel said...

I think that just the *saying* of it will ease the pressure of *feeling* it.

~sending you some Girl Power~


Be well with yourself.

beth said...

my shoulder is always here for the tears....and dancing, well you never have to ask more than once....the hugs are always free and the "not being the one to initiate"...OH CRIPES...I hear you on that one loud and clear...let's talk !!!

JonesMoore said...

Are you going to be at ArtFest (Port Townsend, WA, April1), by any chance? If so, we HAVE to meet. I totally understand what you are saying, no more explanation needed! By just putting your wants and needs out to the "Universe", whatever that may be, you have travelled halfway there. (I love a good, cold beer too)...

cinner said...

It was as if I were reading about me. We all have days like this. What gets me through is always knowing there are better days ahead. sometimes we just need our friends to blow off steam. I am there with you in thought. trust me. I know exactly how you feel.

candy said...

Can I join you and help drink that six-pack and listen to that Aretha cd with you guys? I'll shake my 210 pound rear end around if it will make you laugh...

:)
candy

Samantha said...

Hugs Hugs Hugs.
I could have a go at the romance for you, and I'll happily do the washing up!
Been wishing someone would come do mine lately too.
Hope you've released the tension now (I've seen your recent post). I think it's Spring Mania - everything get's out of balance as the days are coming into balance, and we're much more sensitive to it than we realize. I feel better now the Equinox has passed, and I can start adjusting to the new dominant energies of spring and longer days.
A good cry does really seem to help.

Eternally Free Spirit said...

I think we all need days like that sometimes. A day when when the people who are typically considered the pillars of strength (people like you and i) have a day off. Believe me, I hear ya. And though we don't know eachother very well, I'll offer up a willing ear always. ^_^