Tuesday, February 10, 2009

Break, Break, Break

Dishes -
laundry -
clean the cat pan -
I'm home.
Where is the dream thrust, some days? The swirl
in the air of imagined paths,
colors that transform the air to a palette for the lungs?
I cough.
I sneeze.
I brew tea and
stare at a journal page,
pen loose in my hand.

Who IS it I want to meet?
Where IS it I want to be?
What IS it I'm circling, inside,
guts rolling like a bad sea?

I need to go look in the mirror and SEE.
There has to be
something in my eyes right now,
an explanation, or
the right question to
lead me -- somewhere!
I'm too old to beg to be led astray -- aren't I?
Or is that the adventure I'm missing?

Strange brew,
hindsight and hunger.

23 comments:

beth said...

I'm standing right there with you in front of that mirror....searching and wondering !

Midlife, menopause, mistakes and random stuff... said...

Hey you!! Yeah you.....hilarious commenter.......meet me at my blog in the morning. Please?

You crack me up.........

Steady On
Reggie Girl

GN said...

i love poems at 3 am... nice to hear someone elses mind..

Patrizia said...

Ciao! Grazie per essere passata nel mio blog.
Ogni tanto vengo a farti visita perchè mi piace il tuo....
A Venezia va tutto bene.
Complimenti per la tua poesia, a presto Patrizia

Marie said...

Nice poem:-)

Boots said...

toni! thanks for the come-by! I left a comment but on my own blog LOL obviously have a lot to learn and I hope you will share more of your creative ideas.

todays goal...be attentive to who I am! and fyi- arizona is on my bucket list :)

lee said...

I love that poem, straight from your heart.....I got the pattern from a rubber stamp I have from Stamping Up......

Monica said...

WOW I like that poem...It was like you were inside my head. Kind of comforting to know that there are others standing in front of that mirror too.

Rebecca Lynch Photography said...

Hope you are feeling better. Your journal pages are lovely.

lpickup said...

Wow, soul sister. I felt and heard you poem. who knew I would find my soul here. thank you

Midlife, menopause, mistakes and random stuff... said...

Hey bloggy friend! I looked at the other links you gave me. You really have talent. Wow,,,I'm in awe!!
p.s. I hope you feel better soon ;=)

Steady On
Reggie Girl

Maggie Rose said...

evocative poem, loved the last two lines.

The Vengeance said...

I love your poem. And I like how artistic your blog is- the prompts are really neat. ^_^ I've added you to blogs I follow. <3
(visit me at http://iamthevengeance.com)

Samantha said...

Hi Toni, having a big chunk of hindsight pie myself tonight. Thanks for your comments on my blog - I replied, but on my blog page and I don't know if you get notified of that! I really need a crash course in doing this stuff LOL.
Would love to make my blog look as fantastic as yours but got lots to learn. Anyways, I'll post you something about the Maypole celebrations soon.

Steve Ballmer said...

Very nice pictures and blog!

Magic Sara said...

Hi Toni!
so nice to meet you! thanks for being the first person to comment on my blog...im so new to all of this but it's so exciting! pmdd is premenstrual dysphoric disorder...kinda like really really really bad moods and depression and its linked to that lovely time of the month! I've always had depression since i was 14 then a dr suggested i keep a diary and see if my moods have a pattern which coincides with my you know what...so i thought id start an online diary this way i will actually stick to it! By the way LOVE the little poem...seems very familiar Xoxo

soniasofar5 said...

hey. love the madness of indecision in your poem. i 'm a new blogger. hope u can check out my blog sometime and post a comment. lots of poems and short fiction pieces...

Sande said...
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Sande said...

Awesome poem and I love your blog. Very peaceful place to stop and spend some time.

So much talent you have and thanks for taking the time to sit down and share it with us who are fortunate enough to stumble upon your blog.

Blessings

Lyn said...

It is truly wonderful to find this poem..maybe you follow, but you are the leader!

Debby said...

Thank you Toni for visiting and your comments :) Yes I found you through Veronica's blog, I love your style and felt an instant connection. I am in the process of starting a new blog that will highlight just my Polymer ventures and my photography. Will let you know when that is up. Hugs Debby :)

Portero.com_Tiffany said...

sounds like my brain at 11:00 Pm each night.

DDS said...

I like this poem, it sounds interesting..