Thursday, April 2, 2009

SoulCollage Takeover

The Water Bearer. I am Sirena, your beloved familiar, the one swimming beneath & behind your consciousness, quenching or replenishing your thoughts & dreams with washes of color & vibrancy; the one who has no doubts about you. Miss Congeniality. I am the overlay enforced on your reality by those external, the one they prefer to interact with, rote, performing, always on cue: seen but not heard, seen but not KNOWN -- at your expense. The Wit. I am "Neener", the one making merry, unexpected, spontaneous, clever, and raucous with hilarity. I am the gut-busting belly laughter preventing grudges, the teeter that totters you from stress to release, the unabashed kook. True story. The Preener. I am the one-winged bird upon your shoulder, pulling your creativity like strands of hair through my beak, culling the bright gleaming threads from the drab & setting them to flight on my sacrificed wing through the currents of your vision. [This one SINGS inside me!!] Dark Shadows. I am Depression, the one waiting in the black airless vacuum lit only by toxic sparks of self-loathing, the one madly measuring you on scales calibrated by condemnation. The Critic. I am Melissa, the one redirecting your brilliance to the shadows beneath my negativity cloak, carefully, cruelly, casually chiseling it to stones of fear & dismissal, used by me to hammer flat your keys of uniqueness in order to lock you in the "Who Do You Think You Are?" room with me forever. Intuition. I am the sieve & unerring assessor of your sensory input, who thrusts immediacy of action, wholly articulated, up through your base & bones to the urgency of your awareness. We are strong when you receive, listen to, and act on my voice at its moment of penetration.

I am completely absorbed, to the exclusion of everything else, except for this: in the back of my mind, but also in the fore, I'm worried about time. One week to meditate, meet, introduce, an entire internal group ... I won't be willing to maintain such a pace if it's ongoing. These nuances of self that are coming forward need time to ventilate, articulate, interact, stretch, tilt their heads back into the light of recognition. I still have at least 8 more cards I want to do for this group alone, but I can't continue to ignore -- well -- MY LIFE, in favor of creating SoulCollage cards. I'm serious about this process and will relinquish external prompts in favor of allowing the waters to rise and be met as I need, in order to make the most of the lessons.

14 comments:

flowrgirl1 said...

very cool. love them.

Alison said...

I am all of those whether I want to admit it or not! Some more than others. Some from time to time. Beautiful art Toni!

Holly said...

Love you! Love your work!!! Love the new page layout! Brightens my world when I visit you. And, you know how much I can use that about now. YOU ARE AWESOME!!!

Pamela McCarville said...

These are wonderful!!!!! I love the images and the meanings.

I still need to start. We're suppose to get a foot of snow this weekend, so a good activity.

flowrgirl1 said...

I wish i had made that little sun but no i didn't. It would be so fun to take a class on garden sculpture though!

candy said...

ha! getting lucky! Yes you said that! I hear ya!

:)
candy

cinner said...

All I can say is I find you truly amazing!

skywind said...

Oh, these are great ideas. :)
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beth said...

hey tootsie wootsie....love the new banner and background combo !!!
YOU ROCK !!!

lee said...

Just great as usual Toni

soulbrush said...

hey now this is what i am loving, your honesty, your openness and appealing cards. wow i hear you.

Carla said...

LOVE, LOVE your new banner!!! Did you put it together? Your cards are spectacular, deep, engrossing. I'm glad my name is not Melissa.

Here is Anna's blog:

http://sweetmissdaisy.typepad.com/sassy_sweet_notes/

Kathy said...

Toni...wow, wow, wow!! Again, so powerful, so artistic. You have such a gift for creating meaning and art!! We will have to talk sometime about our "internal groups"!!

Love ya!

Kathy

carla said...

These are amazing! Don't worry about the time... I'm thinking we could do Committee for another week or even two! By the way - I also have that jolly Buddha waiting for his card!